Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Love so truly un-understandable


The old laws were left at the foot of the cross.
Do we have new ones now?

Don't we all have our own laws. The shoulds of whatever role we have in this life, grandmother, grandfather, mom, dad, daughter, son, sister, brother, friend, follower of Christ.

We all probably have other laws. The unmentionable laws. Different, plentiful. The ones inside ourselves. Quiet thoughts and misthoughts, and desires, resentments and unspoken words that have a deep intensity in the dark places.....where no one sees...or hears. What we would like to be, in conflict with what is exhibited by ourselves. So we hide. Covering ....masking...smiling...even when we are dying inside. Even when we know who we really are in Christ....or do we? if we have these thoughts? I think so. I think we lapse into the darkness for instances, for moments, for minutes, for hours, for days, for weeks? Stay away from the intimacy of Father, ....or ignore Jesus as He speaks to you in your heart of hearts....or hesitate to follow the promptings of the Spirit.... stay away from the Word....what a very real darkness sets in then, yes?

When we hide .... are we living in rebellion? Against the love and grace of a Mighty God?

Yes, I guess, but you don't know what is inside hiding....you have no idea of the secret places that are hidden.

Psalm 139:1-6

O Lord, you have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I rise up.
You understand my thought from afar.
You scrutinize my path and my lying down.
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O Lord, You know it all.
You have enclosed me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.

Where does this love come from....day after day....despite the knowing us?
It is only by Him that this can be somewhat understood in this earthly body.
The Love piece is the unmatched ultimate for me to grasp onto. I have struggled with this for a long time. He is Love....that is what He is. How He loves ....so many ways and so perfectly and wondrously.....so unabashedly....so freely. It is unlimited and it is hard to conceive....in my mind. But I have the mind of Christ and I still cannot hold onto this Love notion for very long. How? Why? Me? You have got to be kidding? And yet as often as I contemplate this Love that was there for me before the foundation of the world...I return to be amazed, to be spent, to be brought to my knees, to rise to praise this Love that the Father has given to me through the ultimate sacrifice, my Jesus ....imagine....for me!

Thank You Lord for Your patience as this works through me .....as You....in me.

3 comments:

Child of the King said...

I am wondering if this deep knowledge of love is the reason why, when we don't spend time basking in Him, that we then start to feel the darkness of emptiness and loneliness? It is the loneliness of having been known and knowing that fills that deep place within our soul and spirit with an intense yearning to be filled again. The filling only comes as we are abandonedly abinding as one with Him! Maybe that is why scripture says that it is better to have never known God than to have known Him and turned from Him. The well of Living Water never runs out but sometimes it just gets a little too deep for the moment.

In Christ Alone said...

Ok...so I waded through and think I know what you are getting at. Like I said before ...it is so easy to get feeling the darkness setting in when we (I) tend to isolate or hide out...to avoid .....hmmmm what is it...inconsistency? I know that He wants us to be amongst other believers who can encourage and be encouraged and the coming alongside of each other as Christ moves through us in this way to others......at the loving concern....at the selfless acts that He alone leads us into for His Glory ...through each other...
I know all that...but where I have difficulty is maintaining that if you know what I mean... maybe that is where the church...as in small 'c' comes out a little better in some ways... I want the real deal...the 'Life Group", the 'Gate Seldom Found'...the gathering of the deeper, or higher or more intimate and intense... and I search ...and He searches .. through me.... for this... let me get my binoculars out...cuz I am not seeing this ...and the truth is .... this is my problem... I with Him...He with me...need to find this... I continue to search... I am afraid this search goes into the depths of me... cuz it isn't out there... He had twelve around Him... we must need at least the same... I need you and all that Christ gives to me through you and I pray the same is true for you....our prayer for more comes only to us as we find a way of accepting a math fact that Frank teaches...one plus one...whether in marriage or kinship because we have the same Father....always equals one... and with Him in us...that makes the One ...the Powerful Unity of each of us in Him.... each of us in intimacy with Him... and each of us together in committed relationships with each other in Him as well.... and thus the rambling continues.... there is still way too much self...in this Body... in this Church...to live the Life of Abandonment....at least in this earthen vessel. Always a mess in the process... I am a grateful mess.... that He allows me to ramble on...and only by His grace does not strike me dead for lack of understanding on my part....{Oh I know...I am already dead... :)} and He is continuing to impress upon me what it is He is showing, teaching, loving me into... a fellowship with Him and others... that He leads ... by His Hand... Always...

If you read all this and understood any of it... He must be working in You as well .... cuz what a train... of thought... today. :)

Child of the King said...

Scary that our hearts are truly searching for the One, who hides only so that He can be found. The gate seldom found is the same gate by which we enter into personal intimacy with Him! If "Iron sharpens Iron" we need to find some more iron...course that could be just self talking and what I think I need. Good thing the Father knows exactly what each of us needs and then provides for those specific needs....

love ya!