Sunday, December 31, 2006


Well, friends, brothers and sisters,

We reach the final day of 2006.

This year has been probably the most intense for coming to know....really know the One.

He has revealed...He has lead....He has become my reason for life...because He is Life to me.

Things of this earth are so much fading away.

I mean, I have my family, my work, my earthly enjoyments and activities....

But nothing compares to this Life that is Him.

What fresh joy and revelations and confidences He has shared with me this past year.

What wonderful people I have crossed paths with.....ok, some not so wonderful....

But that has been sooooo good as well.

What great writers of His revelations I have come to read because He lead me to them.

He has brought me to this moment, today and I thank Him, even in the pain....I know that

He is my Life. It gets no better than this. Eternal Life has begun this year for me....

really and truly the understanding of this has begun....I had eternal life before...what it

entailed....I did not know. Coming to this awareness has freed me. I have Abundant Life.

He is in me. I am in Him. He brings me His Peace.


Thanks again to all who have helped me realize this Truth that have helped Him bring me to this moment.

It is all Him....but He used you all as vessels of Himself. I have seen the Lord in each one of you. Blessed is His Name!

Joyous New Year!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Shiny and New and woo hoo for 2007

Well, as you can see I have crossed over to the new blogger side.....I only attempted this because I had three of my four kids home to come to my aid should I falter with the transition. :) They keep trying to get me to go to "MYSPACE".....but I am not jumping ship....I have come this far. :)

Hope you like the new layout and really, in light of eternity and Kingdom business who really cares....although I think He delights in the things that bring us delight.

Starting the new look of the blog with this quote from Manning....(of course),
from Abba's Child. With the busyness of Christmas this and that....we forget to listen. Listening to Him.....brings us to that place....where everything else becomes unimportant...or at least secondary to hearing His Voice.

"It took only a few hours of silence before I began to hear my soul speaking. It only took being alone for a short period of time for me to discover I wasn't alone. God had been trying to shout over the noisiness of my life, and I couldn't hear Him. But in the stillness and solitude, His whispers shouted from my soul, '_____ , I am here. I have been calling you, but you haven't been listening. Can you hear Me, _____? I love you. I have always loved you. And I have been waiting for you to hear Me say that to you. But you have been so busy trying to prove to yourself you are loved that you have not heard Me.'

I heard Him, and my slumbering soul was filled with the joy of the prodigal son. My soul was awakened by a loving Father who had been looking and waiting for me. Finally, I accepted my brokenness....I had never come to terms with that. Let me explain. I knew was broken. I knew I was a sinner. I knew I continually disappointed God, but I could never accept that part of me. It was a part of me that embarassed me. I continually felt the need to apologize, to run from my weaknesses, to deny who I was and concentrate on what I should be. I was broken, yes, but I was continually trying never to be broken again - or at least to get to the place where I was very seldom broken....

It became very clear to me that I had totally misunderstood the Christian faith. I came to see that it was in my brokenness, in my powerlessness, in my weakness that Jesus was made strong."

Sunday, December 24, 2006

The 200th Post

Over the last year, there has been much commentary and sharing of commentary and ideas and frustrations and events and thoughts, dreams and desires. Yep, I know ..... I never really go too deep but maintain that calm, cool exterior that you have all come to love and appreciate. :)

I really never thought that I had so much to say about mostly my life....but I have come to a place where I have much to say about my LIFE.....which is Jesus Christ in me and through me and around me. Not that I impose .... but I do like to share. :) (at least on this blog, some might add.....I can't help it...I am more introspective and reflective and not so much open and communicative in the conversations I have throughout my day that is really His day). :)

How appropriate that this Christmas Eve Day, 2006 should be my 200th posting.

How much I appreciate and love each one of you that turns to this a sort of more or less regularity and gleans what little there is to glean. I am here with Him..... and you have helped me come to this place. The community... the fellowship and the Truth that is shared is unmatched in the rest of this life that is mine in this world. There is a difference, an understanding, a kinship that comes from knowing this One ..... I have come to know Him in this season of my life.

I thank you all....and extend all the love and warmth that He births from me at this time as we stop to recognize this great Love and Grace that is Jesus, born not so long ago into a humanity that He embraced for you and for me.

May you each enjoy this time of celebration with family and friends and enjoy Life as it was meant to be.....abundant and free, wherever you be.....know that you are loved and thought of and prayed for. (I do this as much as I can but He always does it perfectly).

God's rich and bountiful blessings are upon us all. What a wondrous Life this is!

Friday, December 22, 2006

So here is the thing....

So I have you all have been probably....making plans for Christmas and getting it all together, even though it isn't my birthday or anyone in my family's birthday...buying the gifts and sharing the wealth ....etc....etc....running around and yet still 'trying' to maintain a focus of some kind on what this crazy time of year is really about....and that can be almost impossible....and I work in a Christian bookstore....go figure that one out. Any whoo.....I digress, yet again.....

I get two whammies this week and they are totally different in scope and yet if you bear with me.....let me bring it together and into some understanding.... :)

So I have seen the doctor....for a routine kind of a thing....He lays big news on me that I must treat this earthsuit a little better.....enough said.... Now this is an answer to prayer....yep, I dared to pray the prayer that He must do a work in me ....cuz I can't do this in my own strength and I most definitely knew I needed to do something, look where I sit....with a definite change of lifestyle ....going to be imposed upon me....and that, my friends....hard as that is to believe is a real obvious answer to prayer. It took me a few days to see it as such but what you pray for. But how cool is that. It also means I am probably nearer to actually seeing Jesus than I might have thought.....but I am ok with this as well... :) So bottom line, God is good and He is right there, in control.

Secondly, I got a message off my phone yesterday......a very loooong message, from a woman in the study group.....without getting too up in the clouds and breaching any confidences....she basically told me that she had seen might start wondering..... what's up with that....but, listen up....she saw Him in me..... now .... I am not tooting anything....I was astonished and a little put off by her words....cuz there were a few more words than blew me away....she affirmed what I have come to know...and what I am trying to appropriate more every day and that is that He is truly and actually living in me and through me me! That is what is so astounding to me.... Jesus is actually shining through this tarnished and so imperfect tent...and even though it is falling apart ....and wearing at the seams.....and in need of an over-haul...He is still within.....and showing Himself....despite me. He blows me away.....every day!

It is because of Him .......and only because of and of myself.....forget it .

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Devotions for my life....


"Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will go in and eat with him, and he with me."
Revelation 3:20

There is no part of my being that is not laid open to the Divine Guest. There are no rooms of the house of my spirit, into which He may not go.

Let Him come with the master key in His hand into all the dim chambers of your feeble nature; and as the one life is light in the eye, and color in the cheek, and deftness in the fingers, and strength in the arm, and pulsation in the heart, so He will come with the manifold results of the one gift to you.

He will be like some subtle elixir which, taken into the lips, steals through a pallid and wasted frame, and brings back a glow to the cheek and a luster to the eye, and swiftness to the brain, and power to the whole nature. Or as some plant, drooping and flagging beneath the hot rays of the sun, when it has the scent of water given to it, will, in all its parts, stiffen and erect itself, so when the Spirit is poured out on men, their whole nature is invigorated and helped.

Alexander MacLaren

Hope in my Savior

The Christmas contemplative knows that hope is a gift, an undeserved gift of peace, but that it is also a call to decision - the decision to trust.....

Hope thrives on the difficult and challenges the conclusion that our only contribution to the world will be, in the words of T.S. Eliot, "an asphalt driveway in front of our home and a thousand lost golf balls." Hope convinces us that in clinging to a miserable sense of security and status quo, the possibility of growth and greatness is utterly defeated. Hope says that I no longer need to be dismayed over my personal dishonesty and self-centeredness and feeble life of faith. That I no longer need to feel defeated, insensitive, and superficial.

Because the question no longer is: Can I do it? Am I able? Can I overcome my moodiness, my laziness, my sensuality, my grudges, and resentments? The only question is: Is Jesus Christ able? Can my Savior, the Lord of my life, revive any drooping spirit and transform me at Christmas as he transformed the world through his birth in Bethlehem?

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
John 16:33

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

That Flesh

This I received in my in-box today although it was obviously written
6 years ago. How timely is His hand. Child of the King....this is just
what we were discussing last night and ties in nicely with RoG's post
today. He keeps us connected, doesn't He? I love the threads of Him
that keep interweaving through us to each other and hopefully I guess,
out from the inside of us. Does that make sense? :) Sorry it is so long...
but hey....I didn't write just totally spoke to me today.

Grace Notebook

Maladjusted Flesh By John Woodward October 22, 2000

When I stroll down memory lane I am very blessed by my heritage
of loving and supportive parents, grandparents and great
grandparents. Humanly speaking, my life has been derived
from them and they have left contributions and influences that
have had a part in shaping my personality.

Some of these relatives, who have been promoted to glory,
gave items to me which I still have. For example my paternal
grandfather, A. M.Woodward, once gave me his bowling ball
and on another occasion his antique watch. More than these,
I treasure fond memories of his love, humor and generosity.

Allow me to let the bowling ball represent maladjusted flesh
patterns.(If you would see my score sheet at the bowling alley,
you might guess the connection!) The antique watch can
represent the well-adjusted flesh patterns.

The Bible speaks of the flesh as an inward spiritual nemesis:
"I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of
the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit
against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that
you do not do the things that you wish"
(Gal 5:16,17). The flesh (Self-Life) is a condition or way of living
out of one's own resources as if one is independent of God.
The flesh (ethical use) is both sin-stained and sin-trained.

We each have developed our own unique version of the flesh.
Bill Gillham has categorized basic flesh orientations:
"We can lump all Christians into three broad categories:
Yukky Flesh, Plain Vanilla Flesh, and USDA Choice Flesh.
The person with Yukky Flesh has been reared in an environment
where, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get his love supply
out of it by do-it-yourself tactics... The Plain Vanilla, or average,
Flesh person has been moderately successful, neither a roaring
success nor a total failure at getting his needs for self-esteem met.
The USDA Choice Flesh person is everyone's candidate for
Mr. Christian. His high self-esteem is a result of his skill at milking
love out of the world."

Michael Wells has described the programming of the flesh this way.
"Every sin that was committed, idol trusted, and identity message
received had to register in your mind, will, and emotions (your soul),
and therefore the complete history of your old nature is stored there.
When the old man is put to death and replaced with Christ's life
and Spirit, we are one with Him and He with us (John 17:21)...
We receive new spirits, but our old souls containing the old
information remain."

When we think of the works of the flesh, we primarily identify
unethical behavior as listed in Galatians 5:19-21
(the "bowling ball" variety ). However, there are behaviors and
attitudes that are more socially acceptable, yet still derive from
the flesh. The former might be dubbed "self-rottenness",
the latter "self- righteousness". The common trait is that these
characteristics derive from the flesh instead of by the indwelling
Spirit of God. God's will for us as believers in the Lord Jesus
is to replace our old 'self' qualities with Christ-like qualities;
this process unfolds as we walk in the Spirit.

The following lists contrast maladjusted flesh and the corresponding
qualities the believer has in Christ.

Maladjusted "flesh" may prompt you to feel negatively
[but the spiritual truth states that in Christ you are
the opposite.]
worthless [precious]
unwanted [chosen]
inferior [destined for glory]
emotionally blocked [free to feel]
depressed [overflowing with joy]
isolated [involved]
introspective [looking unto Jesus]
performance-based [accepted in the Beloved]
undisciplined [self-controlled]
self-condemned [Christ-esteemed]
self-rejected [totally forgiven]

God's directive to us is well stated in Romans 12:1,2: "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies
a LIVING SACRIFICE, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by
the RENEWING OF YOUR MIND, that you may prove what is that good
and acceptable and perfect will of God." (emphasis added)

The plan is to look closer at the "well adjusted" flesh patterns
(the "antique watch" variety). The remedy for every believer's unique
flesh patterns is to abide in Christ, which includes reaffirming our identity in Christ, presenting ourselves to God moment by moment as instruments of righteousness, and depending upon the power of the Holy Spirit.

Our aim should be that of 2 Corinthians 7:1, "Therefore, having
these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all
filthiness of the flesh [old programming] and spirit [deceptive
messages from the Enemy], perfecting holiness in the
fear of God."

"Bowling ball flesh" (maladjusted programming) will turn us toward
the gutter every time. Our only hope is to constantly yield to the
guiding hands of our Savior.

J.B.W.for Oct. 22, 2000; reissued/revised from Vol.2 #21

Monday, December 11, 2006

A Loving Friendship

This is a wonderful thought today of the loving friendship that Jesus has with us. The grace that He extends and the Grace that He is. He is many things to, He is my Friend.

"Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person;
having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but to pour them all out,
just as they are, chaff and grain together, knowing that a faithful hand will
take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and then, with a breath of
kindness, blow the rest away." - George Eliot -

Sunday, December 10, 2006

What you have!

Barlow Girl
I Need You To Love Me from Another Journal Entry

Why? Why are You still here with me?
Didn’t You see what I’ve done?
In my shame I want to run,
And hide myself.
Yeah, but it’s here I see the Truth,
I don’t deserve You.
But I need You to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from You this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve, what I already have

I need You to love meI, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me.
I just never saw how You
Could cherish me.

Cause You’re a God who has all things,
And still You want me.
And I need You to love me,

And I, I won’t keep my heart from You this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have.

Your love makes me forget what I have been.
Your love makes me see who I really am.
Your love makes me forget what I have been.

And I need You to love me,
I need You to love me,
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have

I need You to love me.
I need You to love me.

Christ is my very life.....not those darn kids....

Deep breath in......slowly out.....
So today, I have had some real sense of what "feeling" alone is like... like some of the other people in my life have experienced....I have had a kick in the butt today... ..that tells me I may have been living my life through my kids (just a tad), (stop nodding everybody), and I really needed to see this .....I cannot have any expectations met through them...I cannot look at them to fulfill anything in me ....through some weird mom type thing....I think I have done this for a long time... well, 7 years or so now...that I have been raising these kids alone.... and now the last of the ducklings are moving on....into their own lives....and whoa! revelation.....I am not alone....never alone...I know that...but always having had the kids to deal with, and live with and chill with and whatever.....I have not had to experience this 'aloneness', not yet ....not really...and today it just came to a real headwater within me.....I cannot continue to keep my 'busyness', with kids,, the other work...etc...and anything else that keeps me from the One thing....the One thing ....that is of most importance and that is my Life that is Him....I am astounded how He continues to grow me Him....Him in me....and through me as me....and just when I think I have come to a comfortable place....something happens and I see a word or phrase in Scripture....with the unmistakable highlighter of the Holy Spirit on it....and it is for me.....He is speaking.....there is no comfort place that I can rest.....except in Him.....always in Him.
This body....this soul and all of this earthly life that I continue to TRY to live nothing....this world nothing.....I am only whole...and I only belong....eternally to Jesus....everything else may have it's blessing, and it may have it's curses....but it isn't who I doesn't bring me the Peace that is Jesus....the Life that is Jesus....the Truth that is Jesus.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Music of your life....

Music means so much to me....

My life's events are always hinged on that one great song....remember this one?

Have you heard that one?

I have been spending a lot of time listening to some the great C.D.s that I have.

The stories....some based on Truth....some on powerfully they touch our that one moment....never to bring back.

How wide the realm of unfathomable the heavenly choir's chorus to Jesus.

I hear the whispers of songs throughout my day....I am usually humming or singing.....whistling and yodeling....well, maybe not yodeling.... :)

Music makes me happy. Sing on!

Casting Crowns - Praise You In This Storm - from the C.D. Lifesong

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away.
Stepped in and saved the day.

But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining.
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain;
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls,
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away.

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand.
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm.

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind.
You heard my cry.
You raised me up again.
My strength is almost gone.
How can I carry on
If I can't find You?

As the thunder rolls,
I barely hear You whisper through the rain;
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away.

I lift my eyes unto the hills.
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
The Maker of Heaven and Earth.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Get over yourself!

These thoughts from Tozer....ring so true....when will we stop trying to do, think, say, the right thing ....and let Him, think, say, the right thing He would. We get so bent out of shape if anyone has an opinion that may be contrary to ours or....heaven forbid....are contrary to us personally....ewwww......what of it.......Jesus can handle this and if we are offended.... maybe it isn't Him showing Himself through us....we might be in the think? It might be Jesus in the other person...speaking to my flesh....hmmm ...there's a thought....Pondering away another Friday night.

Trials and Pain: The Labor of Self-love

For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men?

For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ. Galatians 1:10

The labor of self-love is a heavy one indeed. Think for yourself whether much of your sorrow has not arisen from someone speaking slightingly of you. As long as you set yourself up as a little god to which you must be loyal there will be those who will delight to offer affront to your idol. How then can you hope to have inward peace?

The heart's fierce effort to protect itself from every slight, to shield its touchy honor from the bad opinion of friend and enemy, will never let the mind have rest. Continue this fight through the years and the burden will become intolerable.

Yet the sons of earth are carrying this burden continually, challenging every word spoken against them, cringing under every criticism, smarting under each fancied slight, tossing sleepless if another is preferred before them.Such a burden as this is not necessary to bear. Jesus calls us to His rest, and meekness is His method.

The meek man cares not at all who is greater than he, for he has long ago decided that the esteem of the world is not worth the effort.
The Pursuit of God, 112."

Cry Out to Jesus

Cry Out To Jesus
Words by Mac Powell / Music by Third Day

To everyone who's lost someone they loved
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
When you said goodbye
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right
There is Hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is Grace and Forgiveness
Mercy and Healing
He'll meet you wherever you are

Cry out to Jesus,
Cry out to Jesus

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They've lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering

When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus

To the widow who struggles with being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight

Cry out to Jesus

Thursday, December 07, 2006


Another song from Sanctus Real that tonight....means something.

A friend, from the study group on Tuesday nights passed away yesterday. She was an older woman, but her death came swiftly and without warning. Her earth suit is now but dust.....she knew that her body was not who she was. It was where she lived while she was here on earth. And now she lives elsewhere. And we just talked about this on Tuesday.

This song is obviously about a friend who has passed on but whose son is left with a part of him in him.....and also lives with the life of the him. Just knowing that we are connected because we are the Body.....forever, eternally and always.

Rain falls outside.
I think the sky must know what's happening tonight.
Children born while fathers die.
It's that circle of life that we all live in time,
and we've been friends for a long, long time.
So if you can't talk, just cry. . . .
And know that we will talk on the other side.
It's bitter cold outside
but the Son still shines cuz' we can feel it....
Benjamin you mark the life,
that's been left behind,
we see Him in your eyes
and we will be friends for a long, long time,
so until you can talk, just cry. . . .
And know that we will talk for the rest of our lives
and He gives and He takes
and it makes us strong when He gives,
He takes and it makes us strong
when He gives,and He takes
and it makes us strong when He gives,
He takes
and He makes and it makes us strong
cuz we will be friends for a long, long time
so until you can talk, just cry
and know that we will talk for the rest of our lives....
cuz we will be friends for a long, long time
So until you can talk just cry
And know that we will talk for the rest of our lives
Just know that we'll be friends for the rest of our lives.

Sunday, December 03, 2006


My grace is sufficient for you..." (2 Cor. 12:9a)________________________________________
Living or Just Existing?

By Bill and Toni Morgan November 30, 2006

Many people today go through life only existing. Why is that? What have they lost or what did they never have, that would put them in such a state?

We experience this lack of life when we haven't truly given Christ our all. You say, I know He's in control. He created everything, and since He did, He's got to have me in His hand. But, why do I feel so far from Him? Why do I feel so empty, without the hope I know I should have?

Galatians 2:20 says we were crucified with Christ, nevertheless we live; yet not us but Christ lives in us! Paul was saying that Christ is our life. That's why we can walk out the time here on earth with true joy!

The life yielded to Christ is full in every sense of the word. Full in joy, full in gratefulness, full in hope, full in enthusiasm, full with LIFE--all of life. Yes, there will be sorrow. Yes, there will be trials, times when things are difficult. But does that mean that God is not still on His throne?

No, a thousand times "No!" Emphatically,"No!!" God has not lost His touch. God has not lost His caring. God has not left us to our own devices.

We have His Spirit within us to give us life --a capacity to live beyond existence, beyond self-centeredness.

Does this mean that if we once yield our all to Christ we won't have to worry about sin anymore? No, that's not the case.

In his book, If IPerish, I Perish, Ian Thomas says, "The godliest of people still have lurking within them the most terrible potential for evil. It is the godliest people who know it best. And it is the acknowledgement of that very fact that is the secret to their godliness. They learned long ago, and often by bitter experience, that character does not change for the better by improving the self life, but rather by allowing it to be replaced by the Holy Spirit"-- the Christ life.

Micah 6:8 gives us a concise picture of what God expects of His people. We are told to do justice, love mercy and walk humbly with Him. The justice and mercy we can grasp pretty well, but what does it mean to walk with Him in humility?

Humility is often called meekness in the Bible. But today, meekness is usually equated to weakness. Yet, the Bible says that Moses was the meekest man on earth (Num. 12:3).

Now, you don't lead a million plus people through the wilderness for forty years and be a weakling. What does it mean that Moses was meek?

The last ten years we lived in New Orleans, we had the privilege of doing a live Nativity scene at City Park where 100,000 people a week go to see the lights at Christmas time. In one of the gardens, we had the usual characters plus live sheep, a donkey and occasionally a calf. After our performances each night, my boys and I loaded the animals into our pickup and took them to the stable where they were housed. Once we had them in their stalls, fed them and got them settled for the night, we wandered around, looking at the beautiful horses that were there as well.One night there was a horse named Mr. Cooper standing in his stall. He was a huge animal. His back was about eye level with me (I'm 6'2"), his chest was massive; I could walk under his chin without even touching it. There is no way anyone could control that animal unless he allowed it. But he let his rider direct his every action--when to go, where to go, how fast, when to turn, when to stop. Everything was under the direction of his rider--with Mr. Cooper's yieldedness, of course.

That was the picture of Moses in the Old Testament. He yielded himself to God for His direction. Everything Moses did, every move he made, was based on God's plan and purpose for his life.

We are called on to do the same thing--only we have the advantage of having our director within us. Christ's very life is our life--if we will allow Him to have that place by yielding ourselves to Him. Our yieldedness-- yieldedness to the life of Christ in us, makes all the difference in the world as to whether we are living or just existing!

Bill and Toni Morgan serve as lead counselors at Faith FamilyMinistries, P.O. Box 1200, Blue Ridge, GA. 30513, Ph. 706-632-8886.This article is from their monthly publication, The InnKeeper.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

For the Unusual Ones

Tozer Devotional Today
Trials and Pain: Piles of Ashes

Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it. --Hebrews 12:11

If God has singled you out to be a special object of His grace you may expect Him to honor you with stricter discipline and greater suffering than less favored ones are called upon to endure....

If God sets out to make you an unusual Christian He is not likely to be as gentle as He is usually pictured by the popular teachers. A sculptor does not use a manicure set to reduce the rude, unshapely marble to a thing of beauty. The saw, the hammer and the chisel are cruel tools, but without them the rough stone must remain forever formless and unbeautiful.

To do His supreme work of grace within you He will take from your heart everything you love most. Everything you trust in will go from you. Piles of ashes will lie where your most precious treasures used to be.

That Incredible Christian, pp. 122-124

"Lord, give me the grace to withstand 'the saw, the hammer and the chisel.' I want the finished product; I often chafe under the process. I submit myself today to Your working. Amen."

Friday, December 01, 2006

Sanctus Real - Music of the Day

Sanctus Real’s song “I’m Not Alright”.

If weakness is a wound
That no one wants to speak of
Then “cool” is just how far we have to fall
I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall
Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth,
I need to confess I’m not alright
I’m broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you
Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I’m open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on
Cause honestly, I’m not that strong
I’m not alright I’m broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you, it leads me to you
And I move, and I move, and I move…closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move…closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move…closer to you
And I move, and I move, and I move…
I’m not alright I’m broken inside, broken inside broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through
Leads me to you, leads me to you
I’m not alright, I’m not alright, I’m not alright…that’s why I need you

Thursday, November 30, 2006


So last night was spent just listening to some great music and a little great always is a good night when I can relax and chill after a study night and just appreciate Christ as my life and the amazing way He is weaving His Life in me and some of my old ways of thinking and through me and He shows me that He is just so good and leads me into this life of freedom as I give up this life of my control. Everything is so connected... so relational to Him and this becomes very evident when I keep my spiritual eyes and ears open to Him.
Discussion the night before was about how come this new covenant teaching on Grace and Life is not 'really' in sermons etc....our holiness? our righteousness, our identity in Christ? What difficult concepts to grasp for some of us who have been raised in a more legalistic environment. And what is so cool is that our identity in Christ is only understood by the revelation of the Holy Spirit. The hidden or missed understanding of this message is shown clearly even in Scripture. "We can have everything in Christ and not know it" as Frank said just me anyway :). I remember going through this time of muddlement when I first came into Grace. I see this in others....I know that we can miss the message of the grace of God unless the Holy Spirit leads us into this understanding by revelation. This totally makes us free, though doesn't it.....sharing the truth with others is wonderful but without the Holy Spirit doing His work in the minds and thoughts and hearts of those others....they won't see. And when you see a glimmer of someone who maybe didn't have it before....So cool! Like a light goes on....and you know you can give up your right to be right....and correct....and the one who is going to ain't never going to happen....everyone is at a different place ..... and God knows just where that is ....and you can fellowship with others who no way maybe share the same
doctrine ..because being right is so no longer important and if we think we have arrived at a total understanding...I don't think so...because what we think...doctrinally, right now....has to be open for there is always more being revealed as we are open to the Holy Spirit...and so this IS progressive....and always a process..........and we can love and reason with people...and also let things go ....if they have to be let go...if someone doesn't see or 'disagrees' or whatever...because, that is between them and God and He is the One doing the revealing....not us....we can't beat the new covenant teaching into when someone like in a group you belong to or whatever...(Bible study group) or just a friend or an aquaintance. ... is not 'getting it', the best thing to ....just love them through it...pray that the Holy Spirit would reveal Truth to them....that their spirits would hear and see.... and that might be stem from seeing Christ in you.....That is what I was impressed with last night and to see the Light start to come on in a life that so desperately needs to know that Light in a real way....that is awesome.
Thanks again to those who nudged me to this place that I am ....not staying here....but living here right now...right where I am..with Him... now....and allowing me to ask for the Holy Spirit to allow revelation to continue to come onto me in this Life that is much farther to go.....but O Joy of Joys.....what a journey it is turning into!!

1 Corinthians 2:1-10 (NASB)

"And when I came to you, brethren, I did not come with superiority of speech or of wisdom, proclaiming to you the testimony of God.
For I determined to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ, and Him crucified.
I was with you in weakness and in fear and in much trembling,
And my message and my preaching were not in persuasive words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power,
So that your faith would not rest on the wisdom of men, but on the power of God.
Yet we do speak wisdom among those who are mature; a wisdom, however, not of this age nor of the rulers of the age, who are passing away;
But we speak God's wisdom in a mystery, the hidden wisdom which God predestined before the ages to our glory.
The wisdom which none of the rulers of this age has understood, for if they had understood it they would not have crucified the Lord of glory;
But just as it is written,
Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard,
And which have not entered the heart of man,
All that God has prepared for those who love Him."
For to us God revealed them through the Spirit, for the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God."

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

With Christ

by Hillsong

So many things I realize that I could live without
So many things that I despise and still I live them out

There's so many reasons in my brokenness it seems
To lose my life and let a Servant be my King

I've been crucified with Christ
And I no longer live
Jesus.... forever lives in me

So many words that never say the way I really feel
So many ways to live a life to make 'I love You' real

There's so many times I know I'll choose to die to me
To magnify the One who died to make me free

I've been crucified with Christ
And I no longer live
Jesus.... forever lives in me

The Only Name

by Hillsong

Your Name is high and exalted
Far above everything that's named
Your Name's the only name, Jesus
By which all men can be saved

Your Name is a strong tower
I run to You and I am safe
My greatest honour, Lord,
Is to speak Your Name

Jesus, my Lord Jesus
Emmanuel, You are with us
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Christ is the Lord
I come and behold You

You cover me
Deliver me
Lord I have set my love on You
I dwell within
Your secret place
Under Your shadow Mighty god

Monday, November 27, 2006

Imagine That!

My thoughtful and insightful brother, J. Samuel Thomas reading absolutely wonderful for him. This is from his blog. Never think you are not being read in the blogosphere. Your thoughts because of Christ in you.....touch others.

"Yet Another Profound Statement From T. Austin Sparks."

The True Church Now With Christ In Heaven

"Why am I saying that? Because it is of very great practical application and value. For the Church is a heavenly body, seated with Him (Eph. 2:6). We therefore need have no moment’s worry about the true Church.

Come down to the earth and see how men worry about their ‘church’, and their churches, and their ‘things’. They have got to look after the ‘thing’: they have got to take care of it, they have got to keep it. They are the custodians of this thing, and they watch jealously and fiercely over it. What a lot of worry they have, and what a lot of trouble—just because it is something on the earth that has got to be looked after.

What a grand thing it is, then, to be in the realm of the heavenly Church, where there is no need to worry about trying to preserve something and keep it going and see that it does not pass out!

There is nothing of that at all about a work that is a heavenly work, that is united with Christ in Heaven. There is all the difference when you are on heavenly ground. You need not worry or fret to try and keep the thing going, lest it should break down, and you would be left without your ‘pet’, without the thing for which you spent all your time and your resources.

A heavenly thing is in the custodianship of One Who—thank God—is above all these things, and at rest."



Do you know that?

1) Psalm 118 is the middle chapter of the entire Bible.

2) Before Psalm 118, Psalm 117 is the shortest chapter in the Bible.

3) After Psalm 118, Psalm 119 is the longest chapter in the Bible.

4) There are 594 chapters each before and and after Psalm 118.

5) That if you add up all the chapters except Psalm 118, you get a total of 1188 chapters.

6) Incidentally, 1188 or Psalm 118 verse 8 also is the middle verse of the entire Bible.

The central verse should have a fairly important message don't you think?

Here it is.

Psalm 118:8 "It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man."

Hmmmm......Truth is stranger than fiction!

Sunday, November 26, 2006

I am Content

I know He knows me, He loves me and He will never forsake me. Whatever circumstance I am cannot go awry. There can be no misintepretation.....whatever happens is because that is what is. He is in control and His glory is what it is all about. I would like to be a seer of today's events and tomorrows outcomes. But I am not. May everything I do and wherever I find for the glory of God. All of my life is spiritual (sounds a little prideful, doesn't it, yet not mis-spoken, for it is truth that He dwells in me whether or not I feel Him) ....not just Sunday morning.....and I would like to give all my Sunday mornings to Him. No more ....agenda, foreplan, program. I will sit with Jesus for as long as He asks me to. I may feel times....but I am in His Presence ....all the time. Might fellowship with Him be because of Him all the time......may my heart burn all the time because of His Spirit within me.....I will not look for Him. He is here. I will wait. He will make me content wherever I am and whatever I am doing....because I know His power is within me....and my communion is with Him.

Psalm 23 (The Message)

God, my shepherd!
I don't need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
You find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to Your word,
You let me catch my breath and send me in the right direction.

Even when the way goes through
Death Valley,
I'm not afraid
When You walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
Makes me feel secure.

You serve me a six-course dinner
Right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
My cup brims with blessing.

Your beauty and love chase after me
Every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
For the rest of my life.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

By Him Alone

How do we live in a world that is so performance oriented, so success oriented, so posession driven and so intent on doing everything possible to make everything about what you have, what you look like, what you can do in your own ability, what you can achieve in your own strength, as believers? When me, myself and I, are of the utmost importance, when the top 5% of the people in the world (my statistic), make the rules, the standards for our behaviors, our acceptance quotient know? How do you live, how do you relate to others, your family, how do you expect our kids to understand and emulate anything other than what they see in the world around them ...secular or Christian mind you because as of late and probably for a long, long seems no better than the other?
This question, topic came up this is a biggie....because as we look around, things are not too great....things are frustrating and scary and painful and just not right.....

The answer is simple....we cannot do anything....we will not now or ever change anybody, ourself included, no matter how bad things get, look and actually are. The way is not about doing anything....unless it be by just coming to the place of complete brokenness and realizing that it is here that total surrender to God (all our self, our rights, our actions, our lives, really) is the only response to this despair that is around us. As we allow Christ in us to touch others through us, in that one-on-one wonderful, spiritual, amazing way that He does....things happen....not because of us....because it is Him....and He is the only answer to other people's pain and disappointments. It is in that supernatural exchange of Him and His character that others realize (or not), that this is something different....something good.....something real.....and something they are desperately seeking......!
I checked out walkingchurch this a.m. and saw a stirring account from T. Austin Sparks.....shared by RoG.....and my thoughts were ....about how different we all are in spite of our sameness because it is the same Christ that we live in and move in and have our being in.....and how no way no I want to be anything this world's estimation.....there is way too much disappointment out there.....unless He is the one leading me there.....and I wonder why would He? There is an insurmountable amount of stuff that He is doing right this very imperfect and badly battered vessel....and that is sometimes more than I can I so appreciate the ones that He has used to minister Himself through to me.....I don't need more or any fame or name or other than what is is is more than "I" can handle....I marvel that He is doing things in the people around me......glimpses of the process He is manufacturing for time relationships....He is the one making the difference....whatever my situation or circumstance.....from mountaintop to valley low....makes no never mind to the One who can work through anyone we continue to keep our eyes....spiritual and otherwise on Him alone.....everything else is just not satisfying......and everyone else is just not enough. He is Grace.....He is the One....that can do anything....but it probably won't be large-scale movements and miracles....although He can do that.....but I see Him in the way I view Him so much in the Word as He miraculously He touched the lives of the individual...right there in front of Him.....focussed on that one His love and time and attention to that one......that is how we live ....and how we can continue on in this allowing touch the lives of those around us....right where we this moment....not looking for an opportune time, not looking for a better thing....a better audience...a more perfect appointment......just stepping out of the frame...and letting Him do what He would. Nothing else will work.
How cool it is when this life we live in Him, just flows from one moment to another.....all connected....all relationally connected....all set in motion to astound and amaze us as we see His Hand, His direction, His agenda...on us....on much He is enthralled with the likes of me. This I do not understand at times. But He has impressed upon me this week who I truly am.....and I know that He is the One who has shown me this in a very real and Hands on way if you will. His grace is sufficient for today...for me....for this I need to see it...He knows all this and at times the glimpses of this blow me away.
Sorry for the ramble.....sorry if you don't understand.....He knows of what I speak.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Os Today

Winning into Freedom

"If the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed" John 8:36

If there is even a trace of individual self-satisfaction left in us, it always says, "I can't surrender," or "I can't be free." But the spiritual part of our being never says "I cant"; it simply soaks up everything around it. Our spirit hungers for more and more. It is the way we are built. We are designed with a great capacity for God, but sin, our own individuality, and wrong thinking keep us from getting to Him. God delivers us from sin - we have to deliver ourselves from our individualtiy. This means offering our natural life to God and sacrificing it to Him, so He may transform it into spiritual life through our obedience.

God pays no attention to our natural individuality in the development of our spiritual life. His plan runs right through our natural life. We must see to it that we aid and assist God, and not stand against Him by saying, "I can't do that." God will not discipline us; we must discipline ourselves. God will not bring our "arguments...and every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ" (2 Corinthians 10:5) - we have to do it. Don't say, "Oh, Lord, I suffer from wandering thoughts." Don't suffer from wandering thoughts. Stop listening to the tyranny of your individual natural life and win freedom into the spiritual life.

"If the Son makes you free...." Do not substitute Savior for Son in this passage. The Savior has set us free from sin, but this is the freedom that comes from being set free from myself by the Son. It is what Paul meant in Galatians 2:20 when he said, "I have been crucified with Christ..." His individuality had been broken and his spirit had been united with his Lord; not just merged into Him, but made one with Him." shall be free indeed" - free to the very core of your being: free from the inside to the outside. We tend to rely on our own energy, instead of being energized by the power that comes from identification with Jesus.

Be conscious of God. Romans 8.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

I am Secure

Just a reminder for those of us who can only appropriate our identity over time and by repetitive review..... because sometimes it just doesn't feel is the truth....He says so.

Taken from Neil T. Anderson's book... Victory Over the Darkness.

Who I Am in Christ

I am Secure....

Romans 8:1-2 I am free forever from condemnation

Romans 8:28 I am assured all works together for good.

Romans 8:31-34 I am free from any charge against me.

Romans 8:35-39 I cannot be separated from the love of God.

2 Corinthians 1:21-22 I am established, anointed, sealed by God.

Colossians 3:3 I am hidden with Christ in God.

Philippians 3:20 I am a citizen of heaven.

2 Timothy 1:7 I have not been given a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.

Hebrews 4:16 I can find grace and mercy in time of need.

1 John 5:18 I am born of God; the evil one cannot touch me.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Our World Today - Torture

The news today is not good. We know it will not get better. Article from MSN News. (Eritrea is on the eastern border of Africa).

An Eritrean gospel singer, jailed because of her Christian beliefs and allegedly tortured, has been released after two years in detention, said Amnesty International.

CBC Arts
The human rights group announced Helen Berhane was let go after being held without charge at the Mai Serwa military camp north of the capital Asmara.

"She’s not in good health but at least she's released," Martin Hill of Amnesty told BBC radio on Sunday.

"We understand she’s at her home, or her family home."

Hill said the singer was confined to a wheelchair, the culmination of injuries to her feet and legs.

"The authorities reportedly tortured her many times to make her recant her faith," Amnesty International said in a statement. The organization said it didn't know the exact day Berhane was let go, but concluded that it happened this week.

The group's website says the 30-year-old performer was arrested on May 13, 2004, shortly after she released an album of Christian music. She was detained after refusing to sign a document vowing to end all participation in Christian activities.

The site said Berhane "spent most of her time in detention in a metal shipping container, suffocating hot during the day and freezing cold at night" with no toilet or washing facilities.

Eritrean government criticizes Amnesty

Eritrea's Foreign Minister Ali Abdu denies any knowledge of her case. Instead, he reacted to Amnesty International's announcement by attacking the organization.

"Who has given them the right to be the global police of this world?" said Abdu.

Amnesty International says 2,000 members of evangelical church groups have been arrested over several years.

The government permits only three Christian groups to meet: Orthodox, evangelical Lutheran, and Catholics. Berhane belonged to the unregistered Rema Church.

The number of Muslims and Christians in the African nation are about equal, but the government fears an imbalance could create a violent conflict and is concerned about a rising number of Christian groups.

The U.S. State Department listed Eritrea in September among eight countries cited for severe violations of religious freedoms. The others were: Iran, Burma, China, North Korea, Saudi Arabia, Sudan and Vietnam.

With files from the Associated Press

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Timely Devotion

Another Literature Ministries International Devotion.
Timely words.

November 5
Spiritual Warfare and Sin: Don't Suffer Shipwreck

This charge I commit to you, son Timothy, according to the prophecies
previously made concerning you, that by them you may wage the good
warfare, having faith and a good conscience, which some having
rejected, concerning the faith have suffered shipwreck....
--1 Timothy 1:18-19

Yet the ministry is one of the most perilous of professions. The
devil hates the Spirit-filled minister with an intensity second only
to that which he feels for Christ Himself. The source of this hatred
is not difficult to discover. An effective, Christ-like minister is
a constant embarrassment to the devil, a threat to his dominion, a
rebuttal of his best arguments and a dogged reminder of his coming
overthrow. No wonder he hates him.

Satan knows that the downfall of a prophet of God is a strategic
victory for him, so he rests not day or night devising hidden snares
and deadfalls for the ministry. Perhaps a better figure would be the
poison dart that only paralyzes its victim, for I think that Satan
has little interest in killing the preacher outright. An
ineffective, half-alive minister is a better advertisement for hell
than a good man dead. So the preacher's dangers are likely to be
spiritual rather than physical, though sometimes the enemy works
through bodily weaknesses to get to the preacher's soul.
God Tells the Man Who Cares, 90-91.

"Lord, the battle is intense and the enemy is strong. I pray for
every one of my fellow-servants this morning, especially those who
may be close to succumbing. Give Your great grace and victory
today. Amen."

These are the days....

Okay, so .... I haven't posted since ....

Attended the Grace Walk Conference in Waterloo this weekend. See prior post about this. What can I was a great review of some truths that I have accepted and a wonderful time to prepare for an upcoming study of these very truths that were reviewed at this conference. One very exciting thing to come out of the conference was that new life in Christ was accepted by one attending. Hallelujah! He uses all venues to bring those He so chooses unto Himself at His appointed time. To think that this new believer starts their journey with a strong message of who they now are in Christ...what that identity is and looks like and how God will reveal all to them as they just learn to fully trust in Christ who is their Life, was just truly joy unspeakable.

Another truly wonderful part of this time was being able to share this experience with my two daughters and their friend who came along for the purposes of "shopping" and having a short pre-winter weekend get-away. Three 16 year old girls and me....what a time was had by all. :) It never fails to amaze me how the minds of teenage girls work and this time with them, out of the normal routines, provided joy unspeakable to me as well. It was a time to share, a time to listen and a time to watch as every detail and every discussion was an opportunity for Him to teach us at the very place we are....what He is doing and who He is and how that is lived out in our lives wherever we are. So very cool and I am glad that He allowed me this time to see all of that!

We stayed at a very nice Inn just outside of St. Jacobs and I would love to return to this area a little earlier in the fall another time to breathe in the uniqueness and beauty that exhibits itself there. Again, I digress.

What I really wanted to post was that as I caught up with the things at home after a very long...nap...I read the news release about Ted Haggard. This just reminded me of how precious this life in Christ is and how when one focusses on self and not on matter who you matter where you are.... how that can change your life, how you must live with the consequences of failing to look to Jesus who is the very Life you live if you know Him....really know Him. We who know what our true identity in Christ is ....know that the flesh can rise up in a man...or a woman...and that has nothing to do with who that man or woman is in Christ....and only God knows the heart of this man... but the enemy is chuckling today....what a blow to the 'evangelical' circles....another broken life .... we can accept this and know that yep, we all can allow these things to interfere with our relationship with Christ and know that it is not anything to do with who we are in Christ...that this is brokenness in raw form....and we all come to that place and sometimes over and over again....we have all been there in one form or another...and how Haggard responds is entirely about His relationship with Christ but it hurts 'the church', and gives ammunition to those who do not know .....and that makes my heart ache for this man....for his family....for all who are brought to their knees ....because of the flesh....because of self....whatever you want to call it....and for all those who turn away from 'the church' because of this. We know that this brokenness is sometimes not only necessary but beneficial.....and yet this shakes us still.....But God, will work this for His good .....idols of man are tumbling down....and God is still God and we are not.....and He is still on the Throne. May He take the Haggard family and the Haggard 'followers' through this time of brokenness.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

October 31/06

Literature Ministries International/Tozer Devotional

Failure and Success: I Refuse to Compete

So then neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase. Now he who plants and he who waters are one, and each one will receive his own reward according to his own labor.
1 Corinthians 3:7-8

"Dear Lord, I refuse henceforth to compete with any of Thy servants. They have congregations larger than mine. So be it. I rejoice in their success. They have greater gifts. Very well. That is not in their power nor in mine. I am humbly grateful for their greater gifts and my smaller ones. I only pray that I may use to Thy glory such modest gifts as I possess. I will not compare myself with any, nor try to build up my self-esteem by noting where I may excel one or another in Thy holy work. I herewith make a blanket disavowal of all intrinsic worth. I am but an unprofitable servant. I gladly go to the foot of the class and own myself the least of Thy people. If I err in my self judgment and actually underestimate myself I do not want to know it. I purpose to pray for others and to rejoice in their prosperity as if it were my own. And indeed it is my own if it is Thine own, for what is Thine is mine, and while one plants and another waters it is Thou alone that giveth the increase." The Price of Neglect, 104-105."Amen

Do you hear the heart of God in this? Holy Goose Bumps!

Monday, October 30, 2006


One of the most melodic and worshipful sounds I have heard in a long just reaches in and pulls you into the sound...I just can't help raise my praise to God when I hear it....over and over again! Check it out!

Lyrics and behind the music info from

Sound Of Melodies
by Leeland

We who were called to be Your people
Struggling sinners and thieves
We’re lifted up from the ashes
And out came the song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed

Can You hear the sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God

The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God

We have caught a revelation
That nothing can separate us from
The love we received through salvation
It fills your daughters and your sons
Your daughters and your sons

The sound of Your love
The sound of Your love
Is what You’re hearing
The sound of Your sons
The sound of Your sons
You’ve won Your children
The sound of Your love
The sound of Your love
Is what You’re hearing
Your daughters in love
Your daughters in love
You’ve won your children

The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
Rising up to You, God

Words & Music by Leeland Dayton Mooring, Jack Anthony Mooring and Steve Wilson / © 2006 Meaux Mercy (BMI) / Meaux Jeaux (SESAC) / Meaux Mercy, River Oaks Music Company (BMI)

Behind the Song: The first of back-to-back workhorse songs, drummer Mike Smith says, “Every time I hear this song it’s like the first time I’ve heard it—I’m just as excited.” The title track combines rich, heartfelt lyrics with searing passion imbued in Leeland Mooring’s vocals. “The reason I think this song is so powerful,” Leeland says, “is because it’s stating a claim. It’s making a declaration that this is our sound to God. It’s the sound of your people who have been redeemed and saved by grace singing to you, God, or worshiping you, whatever you might want to say. And I think that means more to God than even the constant singing by the angels in heaven.”

His Victorious Indwelling...Today

(So sweet is this ministering to me, still.)

"He is not a man like me that I might answer him, that we might confront each other in court. If only there were someone to arbitrate between us, to lay his hand upon us both, someone to remove God's rod from me, so that his terror would frighten me no more."
Job 9:32-34

You cannot keep up being a Christian for a day: You cannot follow Christ for a single hour. You are not asked to. All you are asked to do is as you have received Christ Jesus the Lord so to keep on walking in Him; drawing from His fullness for all your needs, drawing upon His resources.
Your repentance is inadequate, and always will be; you cannot feel shame and sorrow for sin as you ought to do. But the Lord Jesus can, and does, on your behalf. He has condemned sin in the flesh even though it were His own flesh. He has taken sides with God against sin on your behalf; He has taken sides with you. He is the Daysman between the two (Job 9:33).
You cannot love God as you ought to do. How many honest Christian hearts there are who are constantly bemoaning their lack of love to God! Of course you do not love God as you ought to; you never will. God does not ask for any measure of love from you to obtain salvation, but He asks you to accept His love, and having accepted His love, that love of His to you will be radiated back again from you to Him. Your love is weak and poor enough, and though you loved Him enough to die a martyr's death, your love would be inadequate to the great love wherewith He has loved you.
So I pray you not to be occupied with your own state, your own condition, your own feelings, your own anything, but with Christ.
J. Russell Howden

We are as dependent upon God when we speak to one soul as when we preach to a thousand. I have learned this by experience; I have gone to see a sick person in great self-confidence and found I had nothing to say. And then the Lord taught me I must wait upon Him for the message for a single soul as much as when I was going to preach. May we ever remember this, that there may be no trace of self-confidence remaining in the heart.
Edward Dennett

Saturday, October 28, 2006

From Insight for

This on-line site has been a blessing to me for a while now....If you brought it to my attention...thanks.

Failure and Success: The Things That Matter

"..that you may approve the things that are excellent, that you may be sincere and without offense till the day of Christ, being filled with the fruits of righteousness which are by Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God." --Philippians 1:10-11

In life there will be found certain great fundamentals, like pillars bearing up the weight of some mighty building....

The wise man will simplify his life by going to the center of it. He will look well to the foundations and, having done that, he will not worry about the rest.

Life as we know it in our painfully intricate civilization can be deadly unless we learn to distinguish the things that matter from those that do not. It is never the major things that destroy us, but invariably the multitude of trifling things which are mistakenly thought to be of major importance. These are so many that, unless we get out from under them, they will crush us body and soul....

Every believer as well as every minister of Christ must decide whether he will put his emphasis upon the majors or the minors. He must decide whether he will stay by the sober truths which constitute the beating heart of the Scriptures or turn his attention to those marginal doctrines which always bring division and which, at their best, could not help us much on our way to the Celestial City.
The Next Chapter After the Last, 11,14.

"Oh God, we are so inundated with distracting things and clamorous voices. Deliver me today from the trifling things and help me to spend every minute of the day on 'the things that matter.' Amen."

Thank you Captain Obvious!

No More Games

I know....I just couldn't help but get into this devotional by Brennan Manning, "Reflections for Ragamuffins". "His Victorious Indwelling" is still probably the one that really does it for me, and just because there is such a wealth of thoughts of some of the greatest writers who are like-minded and weren't afraid to let people know some of the truth that was revealed to them. However, I digress....

Todays devotional by Manning:

"A fringe benefit for the believer en route to higher Christian consciousness is that ninety-nine percent of the emotional suffering caused by his addictive programming to security, sensation, and power disappears from his daily dance. He is able to drop all deceptive manipulative lower-order games - the money game, the security game, the male-female game, the power game, the knowledge game, the expert game, and so forth - and he presents himself simply to others: "Here I am." Free from any false self-image, he says, "It's all I've got."

"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith unto this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God." Romans 5:1-2

I don't know about the ninety-nine percent......? Lots of lower-order games in his mind, eh? I would think there are so many more. :)

Friday, October 27, 2006

Francine Rivers

Sorry, that I failed to mention the book that I finished reading in the previous post.

This woman writes as one who knows all about grace. Not too many Christian writers take me to the places that she has.

I don't read that much fiction. I get lost in it too easily. Every book that I have read of Rivers is a journey and I have come to love her just by her understanding of the faith that I try to live out daily. This book in particular spoke to me as I have recently seen a 'church' working it's way through a building project and from my perspective it was an interesting comparative. No more said.....I live a simple life.

About the church....

Thoughts from a fictional book that I am reading....Facts being stranger than fiction? Closer to the truth....I think, at times.

"The first order of a teach, have fellowship, break bread together, and pray. A church without walls. It isn't the building that matters or the programs or the numbers. It's not the music or the ritual. It is about relationship with Jesus Christ. Believers make up the temple. They are the church. Christ's resurrection power is revealed through our new lives. Sometimes focus changes when there is a 'building' project on. It becomes about bringing people in to bring money in. It becomes about 'events'. The building of a relationship with Christ is secondary or lost completely. It becomes about a head count...the take at any given service. The Lord destroyed the temple and we keep trying to rebuild it.
Maybe it is easier to pour efforts into building a house for God rather than building a relationship with Him. One requires a few years of hard work, but the other asks for a lifetime of commitment. The problem is the building becomes the idol of worship. The programs are the sacred cows. Numbers are the means of evaluating success. Vanity is what it is all about. My church is bigger than your church. My pastor draws a bigger crowd. He is on TV and radio. Next thing you know he has a Bible with his name on it."

Guess what I mean is that a church started by praying together. Now the church .....big or small.....does everything but....just my ramblings today. Church falters...when we fail to be the church...when we lose the focus....Jesus Christ!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Galatians 5:24,25

"Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.
If we live by the Spirit let us also walk by the Spirit." (NASB)

Study notes on these two verses.
"In order to accept Christ as Savior, we need to turn from our sins and willingly nail our sinful nature to the cross. This doesn't mean, however, that we will never see traces of its evil desires again. As Christians we still have the capacity to sin, but we have been set free from sin's power over us, and no longer have to give in to it. We must daily commit our sinful tendencies to God's control, daily crucify them, and moment by moment draw on the Spirit's power to overcome them (see 2:20; 6:14).

God is interested in every part of our lives, not just the spiritual part. As we live by the Holy Spirit's power, we need to submit every aspect of our lives to God - emotional, physical, social, intellectual, vocational. Paul says that because we're saved, we should live like it! The Holy Spirit is the source of your new life, so keep in step with his leading. Don't let anything or anyone else determine your values and standards in any area of your life."

Galatians 6:14
"But may it never be that I would boast; except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world." (NASB)

Study notes on this verse.
"The world is full of enticements. Daily we are confronted with subtle cultural pressures and overt propaganda. The only way to escape these destructive influences is to ask God to help crucify our interest in them, just as Paul did. How much do the interests of this world matter to you? (See 2:20 and 5:24 for more on this concept.)"

Galatians 2:20
"I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me." (NASB)

Study notes on this verse.
"How have we been crucified with Christ? Legally. God looks at us as if we had died with Christ. Because our sins died with him, we are no longer condemned (Colossians 2:13-15). Relationally, we have become one with Christ, and his experiences are ours. Our Christian life began when, in unity with him, we died to our old life (See Romans6:5-11). In our daily life, we must regularly crucify sinful desires that keep us from following Christ. This too is a kind of dying with him (Luke 9:23-25).
And yet the focus of Christianity is not dying, but living. Because we have been crucified with Christ, we have also been raised with him (Romans 6:5). Legally, we have been reconciled with God (2 Corinthians 5:19) and are free to grow into Christ's likeness (Romans 8:29). And in our daily life, we have Christ's resurrection power as we continue to fight sin (Ephesians 1:19-20). We are no longer alone, for Christ lives in us - he is our power for living and our hope for the future (Colossians 1:27)."

Hmmm, someone lead me onto this train of thought yet once again. Commentaries on these passages of Scripture sometimes confuse the Truth....don't you think? It all must be read under the Holy Spirit's leading because otherwise we may take something away with us that is not there.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

From "His Victorious Indwelling"....Today

I felt directed to this devotional again today, (even when I just got a new devotional by Manning titled Reflections for Ragamuffins, and you all know how much I love Manning's reflections). :)
Well, as you can see there are reasons and healing messages provided as we listen to the directions of the Holy Spirit. May those of you who need to hear His voice, and feel His touch, especially today......reach out to those around you in honesty and truth and joyfully receive what is given to you, by Him, through those who love you.

"It is ever a fatal mistake when we measure the difficulties of service by what we are. The question is what God is; and the difficulties that appear as mountains, looming through the mists of our unbelief, are nothing to Him but the occasion for the display of His omnipotent power."
Edward Dennett

"I rejoice in the afflictions which I bear for your sake, and I fill up what yet is lacking of the sufferings of Christ...on behalf of the church." Colossians 1:24

"Is it not wonderful that the Christ of Calvary came and first lived the life He wants us to live? He came and lived it first, and then through His death, and our death with Him, He desires to live it all out again in us, saying of the poor dark world of men, "Through My children they will understand Me, for there is the same spirit in them as there was in Me."

We can see now why Paul was able to say, "I rejoice in the afflictions which I bear for your sake, and I fill up what yet is lacking of the sufferings of Christ....on behalf of the church," and again in Philippians 2:17-18, "Though my blood be poured forth upon the ministration of your faith, I rejoice for myself, and with you all, and do ye likewise rejoice, both for yourselves and with me."

Do you "rejoice" when others are poured out for you for Christ's sake? Oh no, you say, I am willing to be spent, but I do not want anyone spent for me! Ah, but it takes much grace for some independent characters to allow anyone to be 'spent out' for them! But Paul said, "Though my blood be poured forth, I rejoice....and do ye likewise rejoice." Neither Paul, nor others, must be robbed of their fruit, when they desire to lay down their lives for others. How it pains when those in need are unwilling to have anything done for them.

Take heed lest there be "self" even in this. Christ, for the joy set before Him endured the Cross. There is a joy in sacrifice for others that is divine. "My joy I give unto you!" "Joy" on the eve of Calvary! This is the experiential path. Shall we follow it? You say, Yes? Then let the Holy Spirit manage you, and your circumstances, and carry it out in His own way."

Jessie Penn-Lewis

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Reflection of Something

Sometimes you can't sleep and you put on a C.D. and it just blows you away. That was me in the wee hours of the morning. This one is a keeper.

My Jesus......Todd Agnew

Which Jesus do you follow?
Which Jesus do you serve?
If Ephesians says to imitate Christ
Why do you look so much like the world?
Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the arrogant
So which one do you want to be?

Blessed are the poor in spirit
Or do we pray to be blessed with the wealth of this land
Blessed are they that hunger and thirst for righteousness
Or do we ache for another taste of this world of shifting sand
Cause my Jesus bled and died for my sins
He spent His time with thieves and sluts and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the rich
So which one do you want to be?

Who is this that you follow
This picture of the American dream
If Jesus was here would you walk right by on the other side
Or fall down and worship at His holy feet

Pretty blue eyes and curly brown hair and a clear complexion
Is how you see Him as He dies for Your sins
But the Word says He was battered and scarred
Or did you miss that part?
Sometimes I doubt we'd recognize Him

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and the least of these
He loved the poor and accosted the comfortable
So which one do you want to be?

Cause my Jesus would never be accepted in my church
The blood and dirt on His feet would stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despises the proud
I think He'd prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me if I cry out loud

I want to be like my Jesus!
I want to be like my Jesus!

Not a posterchild for American prosperity,
But like my Jesus
You see I'm tired of living for success and popularity
I want to be like my Jesus
But I'm not sure what that means
To be like You Jesus
Cause You said to live like You, love like You
But then You died for me
Can I be like You Jesus?
I want to be like my Jesus.....

Unchanging One: Todd Agnew

I looked for love in every single situation
For something, for someone
That would last a lifetime,
A love that never dies
And I find.......

You know when I wake,
When I rise,
When I pray,
When I curse You
And You love me the same
You know when I stumble and fall,
You're there through it all
The only unchanging one

I looked for faith on the edge of my roof
No fear, Daddy's here
Still I struggle to trust You
With the rest of my life
When I could just fly

You know when I wake,
When I rise,
When I pray,
When I curse You
And You love me the same
You know when I stumble and fall,
You're there through it all
The only unchanging One

I looked for God.

You know when I wake,
When I rise,
When I pray,
When I curse You
And You love me the same
You know when I stumble and fall,
You're there through it all
The only unchanging One

You know my inmost being
You know my deepest scars
You know my darkest secrets
You know and You love me
and You love me the same.

Friday, October 20, 2006


Wide range of emotions today. My dad is in car fried a coolant something or other hose and is in the car hospital. Of course, I work all in all circumstances is hard to live out sometimes. Send a prayer our way. :)

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Grace Walk Conference

Think about this!

Putting out a plug for one of my favourite ministries.
November 3rd and 4th, 2006
Lincoln Rd. Chapel
Waterloo, Ontario

Check out the rest of the details on the website:

GRACE WALK CANADA“ Sharing the Love & Life of Jesus Christ”
Steve McVey and Michael Zenker
If you have any questions, don’t hesitate to phone or email at:
(519) 210-0075 or

Have you ever asked yourself this question… what does God want from me? The answer… He just wants you!! Not your promises, not your good intentions, not your Christian service. Everything else will take care of itself when we rest in His arms, allowing Him to act through us. What a joy and relief. It isn’t a passive lifestyle, but a peaceful one where we actively rest in Him and He does it all! It is a walk of grace, and it really is amazing!
There are eight sessions included in the Grace Walk Conference

Session One: Miserable Mediocrity

Session Two: Darkness Before Dawn

Session Three: A Brand New Me

Session Four: A Dead Old Man

Session Five: Free From The Law

Session Six: Victory is a Gift

Session Seven: Experiencing His Life

Session Eight: Living In Grace

Many Christians are imprisoned by a spiritual inferiority complex. As you listen to the truths taught you will begin to see yourself as God sees you - as His child, a saint, a work of art, righteous and forgiven! This is the message of the Grace Walk.

This two day conference (9 hours) will help you experience life the way God intends for it to be. The focus of this conference is to help you understand your identity in Christ and learn how to walk in grace, allowing Him to continually live His life through you.

Maybe see you there!